Life update

Hello everyone, it's been a while since I wrote on this blog. Almost forgot I had it! Unbelievable!

This morning I woke up with the urge to create something, to write something.

I'm in a weird place with my mind lately and needed to sit down and analyse what's is been going on.

Last time I was here it was summer, I was in my hometown (for who's interested I'm Italian but live in London) for holidays with my family, had recently been in Brighton with my best friend, quit Uni and my job, decided to give a burst to my life and overcome my anxiety.

Now here I am an year or so later, I did gave a burst to my life: got a new job, been in Brighton again but I definitely din't overcome my anxiety, it got better tho. Thanks to the people around me (big shutout to the chilliest person I know, my boyfriend) I can finally say I'm more careless and I overthink less, but there are still moments (like it happened this week) when I start doubting about everything I'm doing with my life, all the decisions I've made from the smallest to the biggest. From why did I buy that stupid thing from Primark to why I accepted to start my training as a manager in a busy retail store knowing that I don't like the working hours and that is not what I want to do for the rest of my life.

But to be honest, what is that I really want to do with my life? I am 23, is anyone supposed to know what to do with the rest of they're life at this age? If yes I am way behind everyone else.

Now we are so close to Christmas (my favorite holiday of all time) I am forced to work, away from my family, almost at the end of my manager training and doubting about weather or not to finish or not.

I'm so confused.

For one side I really want to finish to have this notable position, from the other side I really couldn't care less for it.

All I would like to do is having normal working hours, hang out with my friends more and spend my Christmas holiday with my family.

Is that too weird? I don't know.

Oh so nostalgic of the good old Christmas holiday spent with people I love surrounded by food and presents.

For how much I keep telling myself to be less harsh on me I can't stop waking up in the middle of the night thinking of what to do with my life and if everything I did so far is right.

Wow this was a really deep post! Let me know what you think and how are you doing at this stage of your life, hope you have it all figure out and if you like me don't we can be best friends and cry together.

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